hey all...i haven't updated this in such a long time!! ahh!! ever since school started....damn it has been a while....and its so funny cuz i was thinking about updating this thing today so i decided to and when i came on i had a new comment...it was a new one from today and it was catie telling me to update this!! haha!! ironic..huh? well anyways...a lot has happened since school has started...when i say a lot has happened....boy do i mean A LOT...things are so different now..and there is nothing i can possibly do to stop it...it really really sucks.....i got this fortune from panda express today and it said the funniest thing...."you will be treated the way you teach others to treat you" hmmm....interesting thought....so here is my question.....how did i teach the lesson wrong? wat did i do? can somebody please tell me? it sucks to feel like there is nothing u can possibly do to make a situation better...cuz i tried already...and it didn't even get close to getting any better.....the only thing u can do in life is try...and i did that already. i am a strong person and im trying not to let this stuff bother me...i know life isnt fair...but whats going on right now is sad, ridiculous, and hurtful....nothing is fair about that...and when it comes to my feelings.......NOTHING is ever fair....my emotions are a rollercoaster that never ends....it goes drop..after drop...after drop....when people that are really close to you act a certain way towards you...a dent is honestly put right in your heart...it truly is...i have had this done to me one to many times..and i seem to be learning the same lesson over and over again....god? when am i going to finally pass my test?

***wake me up when september ends***<<<<literally

Everday I wonder why
Why things go bad everytime i try
Try to get close and friends push you away
Try to fall in love and only the pain stays
Life is never easy
And relationships are always hard
But through the good and the bad
Things usually work out in the end

the girl who seemed so unbreakable BROKE
the girl who seemed so strong CRUMBLED
the girl who always laughed it off CRIED
& the girl who never stopped tryin QUIT

Learn from your past, move on, grow stronger.
People are fake, but let your trust last longer.
Do what you got to do, but always stay true,
and never let anyone get the best of you.

 Everything is all right in the end. If it's not all right, it's not the end<<<<i hope the end is soon

love always, mal xoxo

wow...the day has finally come..it's sunday..the last day of summer before school...it's a day that i have been dreading for a long while. but right when i believed maybe my summer was worth while...it blew up in my face once again. so i can say im ready to go back to school...to see all the people i don't want to see and to the homework that i don't want to do. i just have one question..why is it when it seems like something is good..it really isn't..or it just gets bad? well i have had that feeling so many times in my life..and im really just sick of my emotions going up and down like a f-ing rollercoaster. its not fair. i was able to deal with it before but i just don't understand why when things get good they are ALWAYS headed right towards disaster.....i have to say...last night...was the worst night ever...(or at least in a long ass time)

xoxo-mal

where to begin...where to start. well i dunno what exactly to say. i dont kno what to do anymore. summer is over. yeah that's right...our long ass summer that i was just ever so looking forward to...it's over. there are so many things that i didn't get to accomplish during my summer that i would have liked to...well there are A LOT of things that i didn't get to  accomplish...and i constantly ask myself why didn't i complete the things that i wanted to complete so badly...that question remains unknown. junior year is starting in exactly one week from today...its a scary thought that in one week and one year i will be starting senior year...and that in one week and two years i will be leaving for college...crazy thought..huh? sophomore year wasn't exactly a good year to the least bit...it was good in any area at all...and i do..i blame myself for that. i hope that this time next year i don't have any regrets over my junior year....cuz honeslty...regret is the worst feeling in the world to feel. nothing beats regret. im not saying my summer was absolutely horrible or anything because i had my girls...uno nights...FOOD...and a little bit of this..and a little bit of that. i want my junior year to be a great year cuz i don't want to have to go into senior year hating it. let's make the best out of this year everyone and our last week of summer....

 xoxo-mal

hey!!! well i just got back from wisconsin yesterday afternoon from the annual summer service trip. i can honestly say i had the time of my life. i haven't had so much fun in a long while. we were gone for a week and i enjoyed every minute of it. we went to a small town called Marinette, WI and fixed up somethings in a shelter called  Rainbow House. we fixed a bathroom, painted a playground, stained a ramp, landscaped a front yard, and pretty much remodeled a whole entire room. we did so many wonderful things for so many wonderful people in such a short while. its really cool to know what we accomplished and to know why we accompliushed it. i learned a lot about myself on this trip and i felt like i reconnected myself with god. i did so many things that i never had the ability to do before. i became friends with so many great people. im really glad i did this. pamelita learned a lot about herself this trip too. her street isn't so shallow after all if you know what i mean. she started to fly and by the end she was soaring!! there were so many funny moments during this trip. the car rides..... pam letting me know she pissed her pants when i slept at her house a few months ago while i was sleeping next to her, EWW!!...rooned.....motorcycles ride on gas??? flex pam, I AM!...... that's not muscle, that's just fat....THE GAME.......pop a squat.........a little bit of this, a little bit of that..........and so many other things!!! well im glad to be home. but im really sad that we aren't still in WI. i can't wait till next year!! luv you all! xoxoxo

mal

hey guys....in case i don't get a chance to say i adios i love you all! im gonna be gone all of next week on our summer trip! i hope u all don't miss me too much!! bye bye muahmuah xoxoxoxo

mal